Worked on this girl for 9 months. Now this new music video comes out and she’s immensely popular, arguably one of the most popular characters in the LoL universe.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m really glad she’s a huge hit, it’s super exciting to see so many people love the character design and the gameplay, and know that I contributed directly and significantly to the behind-the-scenes engineering that makes it all work. It’s validating.
But it’s also so fucking melancholy to know I did so much work and put in so much time for such a shitty company, run by shitty people, and the reward I got for it was unemployment.
I threw a lot into this character. I cried at work. I started getting panic attacks, which I’ve never gotten before. I developed persistent heart palpitations from the daily overwhelming stress and had to go to the hospital (this is true, seriously.) I basically dropped all my friends outside of work. My manager (and his manager!) lied to me constantly to keep me working. They said I was doing a great job but to keep it up. Don’t worry, it’s going to turn out great, and it’ll all be worth it in the end – recognition, a raise, probably a promotion in short order. They promised me the world. When she was finally finished, I didn’t even get to go to the release party, they just walked me out.
I remember a quote from my last day, it sticks out in my mind: “I know you realize this is really hard for me,” my manager said. Yes, in the end, when he awkwardly informed me I didn’t have my dream job anymore – or any job at all – and then stared back at my shell-shocked face, my thousand-yard stare, the only thing he felt was sorry for himself.
She launched with no major bugs and was considered a technical success. Doesn’t matter. Get the fuck out.
I don’t know how I feel. A weird sensation of pride and intense bitterness. I did a good job; at least, I think I did. Unfortunately, internal validation is the only kind I’m going to get.
I know yall like hairless cats (which I’m not complaining about, hairless kitties are wonderful) but I never see any love for hairless dogs so I’m gonna fix that because I believe in equality
Hairless Dogs are fucking cute thank you for coming to my ted talk
When somebody says that “a man likes to feel like a man,” all I hear is “A man likes to feel superior to you and it’s your job to make him believe it.”
Someone said this to me once, that a man needs to feel like a man, I replied “well I’m not stopping him” and had to watch this fragile creature try to explain to me that my strong personality could demean men.
Like, if I have to pretend you are a strong man and cater to that then clearly you’re not that strong dude.
“if I have to pretend you are a strong man and cater to that then clearly you’re not that strong dude.”
gender nonconforming trans women are fucking awesome and brave tbh, there’s a lot of pressure to perform femininity, especially for trans women (institutionally, trans healthcare all but fucking REQUIRES IT in order to transition) and you are no less female for going against that pressure. this goes double for TWOC, especially black and latina trans women. honestly just shout out to gender nonconforming women everywhere, cis and trans alike.
yall can reblog if u want btw, im sure there’s plenty gnc trans women on here who could use some encouragement today, I know I could
8tracks finally realized that no one was going to treat it like spotify 2.0, and you can listen again for free (with ads, of course) which of course means We’re Back On Character Playlist Content 2018 folks
hey zoe i just need you to know that it’s 2018 and i drew an 8tracks cover art for a ‘massacre route’ playlist i finally remember how it feels like to be alive
Character playlists are the only valid past time on this bitch of a planet, thank you for reviving a lost art. Make sure you have adblock/ghostery so you can listen to your jams ad-free + sequentially
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