So today was supposed to be amazing, but ended up being the worst day of my life.
I don’t know where to start. For the first time ever, I thought about killing myself today.
I just flew back to the uk from a 3 month trip in the states. It was a very stressful trip plagued with sudden money issues out of our control, and other things, but I also met the love of my life and got engaged! Which I would have loved to announce in happier circumstances, but… I can’t do that.
She flew back to the UK with me, with the plan being that she stay here for 6 months. It’s a long time, yeah, but we did our research and it’s a legal stay as a tourist in the UK. She would have been staying with me at my parents, rent free and fully supported as a guest of the house. But immigration pulled her aside for questioning and left me waiting.
For ten hours.
My dad and i were answering questions on the phone for them on and off every three hours or so and my dad was adamant that we were supporting her.
But she was turned away because they didn’t believe it in the end. She now has to take a flight home, without many of her belongings because we shared my suitcase too.
She’s being held until tomorrow in an immigration center then flying back. There’s an option if trying for immigration bail but it’s flaky at best and likely expensive.
This summer has left me broke and torn from my partner and I don’t know where to turn. I really don’t. Literally the only thing that solves these problems is money and I already came begging with nowhere to turn just last month.
Here’s some fucking icing for the cake to top it all off though.
My dad has cancer.
A rare kind with little known about it and they give him 5 to 10 years.
I want to vomit but I haven’t eaten in nearly a day now. I want to cry but I don’t want to make this car ride awkward. I want to be able to do something but I’m just… lost. All the money spent on the flight is just gone and I’ve let everybody down that already helped us through a rough patch.
I hate doing this but I have no idea where to turn… If you have literally any spare change of any amount you can donate below. It’s incredibly ugly and embarrassing of me to be asking this again but I’m determined to fix this as best I can but this world isn’t letting me do it alone. She doesn’t deserve this.
https://www.paypal.me/generalmumble
If you’re wondering where the money will be going, it’ll be going to any solution to this problem. Legal things most likely.
And for the record I’m not gonna kill myself. I dunno. My mind just went there and stayed there for a while. I’m ok. Ish.
https://www.paypal.me/generalmumble
I don’t know if the link above worked 😦 or this one)
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